mental health

i dont think people really care about mental health. i deffinitely don't think school does. you don't get time to. get work done get into college. thats all theres time to do and sometimes thats just not possible. sometimes real life gets to you and real life isnt the grade on a test or the next party or what to do next year. sometimes you just cant focus on those tests. sometimes you cant go out to parties anymore because your on medication. sometimes you just dont know where you're going to be next year because things havent turned out the way you had planned on for so long. i dont think writing this is going to make you care about my mental health. i don't think its going to give me any insight. my mental health sucks whenever im in school because i know im not focusing on things that actually matter. i know there are bigger things right now and i cant even think about it because if i keep failing then i dont get to keep those scholarships to those schools i dont even fucking like and i dont even know if i wanna go to school next year. none of the school stuff matters. i shouldnt be pretending im fine monday through friday 8 30-3 10 because i need to go to stupid classes that i cant even focus in anyway. no one in school actually cares if ur okay as long as you show up enough, get good enough grades so the school looks good and dont shoot up the school.